Saturday, September 03, 2005
My poly classmates.
Yoz ppl... i shalln't talk about wat happened today(should be yesterday, looking at the time now...) liaoz... cos nothing much.... Went 4 choir and the dinner at clementi with the conductor and friends.... I just wanna talk about my classmates today. You may read the full story below, and i hope that u ppl will give me suggestions on how to deal with them...
During the first few days in sp, i had gotten to know most of the guys and some of the girls in my class, and started to mix ith a group of guys.... We had quite some fun... they include benji, alwin, weng chi, choon seng and wei chang.... We were together during the flag day, while the rest of the class went seperately to different places.... Benji was the first person i got to know better, as we went to sell flags at chinatown, while the rest went to slack in the afternoon, cos they got bored after asking for donations for the whole morning....
One week later, we went out to play cs (counterstrike) at a lan shop, and tis time round, devester joined us, leaving Chian hwee and de hong.... I thought that they are my real friends in class, but after 2 weeks or so, i realised that i am foolish to think tat they are my friends in class.... It was during an idea lesson when we are supposed to form a group, tat made me realised that they are people who don't think of friendship, and are onli bothered about themselves.... out of the 7 of us, 5 fromed a group themselves and the remaining two of us were left out.... if they were my friends, they would have agreed to spilt into groups of 3 and 4 persons.... This event made me upset, and i am left with no choice, but to join chian hwee's group.... During rwp lesson the week be4, i was in the same group as 3 other ppl, and two of them were without a group.... i requested to join the 2 to form a new group, in order to have equal no of ppl in a group, and wat i got back in return??? Getting thrown out of their idea group and left alone, as though no one's buisness.... sob sob....
Then in the months to come, i didn't join them for fiona's bday, and the think i pangseh them, but in acture fact, i was broke.... since then, they left me out in everything as they think tat i am those sort of not "steady " friend.... i have been mixing with chian hwee, de hong and alvin since then. After various ica, which i got low marks (Cs for most of them), the guys are all trying to avoid me, as though i am carrying some stupidity virus with me, and would make them stupid if they come close to me, except for alvin, who is always standing beside me....
Further more, i am begining to feel tat someone in their group is an asshole.... Always asking the whole class to pon together, but he himself dun wan to pon... I feel that the asshole is very fake.... Making friends with smart ppl just to gain some of their knowledge, and the whole group just got stuck to him, as though their minds are controlled by him, except for the smarter ppl... they follow him wherever he goes, and even to the toilet.....! Nowadays, i am beginning to feel that i am not part of my class, and the onli fun thing in sp is choir.... haiz.... so confused and sad now.... Y are ppl in my class like that??? ( i am mentioning the guys onli, cos i dun mix with the girls often)..... Can anione understand how i feel now???? Please tell me wat to do...
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